Ego Work: The Protector of our Deepest Fears 

Ego Work: The Protector of our Deepest Fears 

The way I see it, the ego is there as a defender of our weak, vulnerable, fear spots. Not an enemy, actually an ally at times where it’s the only reason we survived. But after awhile, those belief systems become solid, and route thoughts through the maze of what the...
Ayahuasca Ceremony #225/ Plant Diet #8: Do What it Takes 

Ayahuasca Ceremony #225/ Plant Diet #8: Do What it Takes 

The question is, am I in service or not? Am I willing to do what it takes to be in spiritual service? I feel like it’s “selling in” (vs. “selling out”) – like a Peruvian mother who sacrifices time with her children to work in the US...
Ayahuasca Ceremony #221/ Plant Diet #8: Cement Layers of US Consciousness Cracking 

Ayahuasca Ceremony #221/ Plant Diet #8: Cement Layers of US Consciousness Cracking 

But longing is not honoring the love at all. It is honoring the fear. It is a way of distracting. It is a way from avoiding feeling the feelings I may have actually been feeling underneath, which for me, would be a self-fulfilling prophecy of the self-doubt that...
Ayahuasca Ceremony #216/ Plant Diet #7 with Crystals: Substances 

Ayahuasca Ceremony #216/ Plant Diet #7 with Crystals: Substances 

Part of releasing this core self-doubt involves learning to manage its defense mechanism: control. Trying to force someone to like me. Trying to force myself into being someone else to make them like me. The last “blanket” of crap, muting my true colors....