The old relationship triggers are still ready to fight. Early on I developed the “fantasy” defense, the “white picket fence, over the top romantic, save-me-from-myself” kind of deal. She personified as a combination of domesticated June Cleaver/Suzy Housewife and “cool girlfriend” (trying to be “low maintenance” and sacrificing my boundaries and self-respect by being “cool” about cheating, etc.) But my true self knew that was bullshit.

 

FULL ARTICLE: The Layer Above My Soul: New Relationship, Old Triggers • Meghan Shannon Elder – Ayahuasca Shamanic Apprenticeship and Beyond